08 November 2010

It Won't Be Like This Forever.


You know what will make me feel better?  Writing a blog. 
I have long been reciting to myself a mantra that sounds like this, “It won’t be like this forever.”  I say it because I know that it’s true.  I won’t always be pulled in a thousand directions, few of which I am passionate about, and being paid nada at a part-time retail job.  But for now I am…
School : 15 hrs/wk
Homework: 15 hrs/wk
Work : 25 hrs/wk
VA for Rachelle : 5 hrs/wk
Ride the bus : 15 hrs/wk
Self-Care: 2-4 hrs/wk
Students Leadership: (PTK, Panel discussion board, Art Auction committee, SPOT committee, Literary Magazine Committee) 2-4 hrs/wk
That equals 84-ish hours a week.
Then…
Friends, Sleep, food, bathing, laundry…If I have time I fit those in.  I also like to read magazines and watching 30 Rock. 
My head is spinning.  But this is how I fix it.
I write, do yoga, breathe, lay very still, eyes closed and breathe in and out. If I do these things everything in the first list is much easier and I am nicer and coherent and not having emotional breakdowns. 
It won’t always be like this, I just need to breathe. 

15 October 2010

Magpie Girl on Overcoming Resistance in Your Art.

I'm friends with this very creative soul.  Her name is Rachelle and she is known to us as Magpie Girl.  Over at her blog she coaches us on whimsy, maintaining art through chronic illness and finding spirituality that fits.  She's pretty great at it.  This month is her birthday and as a present to herself she set the ambition goal to tell 30 Stories in 30 Days (a la Ira Glass).  She decide to let fellow bloggers ask her questions and she answers them on their blog. (She has a few spots left if you're interested!)

And so on my blog, the thing which most publicly depicts my resistance, she's going to tell us how she meets resistance head on and give us some advise on how to overcome it. 

Without further adieu, I present Rachelle...


Q: How do you overcome resistance in your art?
Ironically, I’ve been staring at this blank page for two hours now. I checked Twitter. I renewed my driver’s license. Paid a few bills. But have I written this post? No. No I have not.
Resistance is the artist greatest enemy. Full stop. And it comes from within.
Yeah, it bites.
Here are some tips and techniques for dealing with resistance:
Set Yourself Up
The number-one thing I do to break through resistance is to set myself forced deadlines. My son-adopted-by-affection is a big fan of self-directed education. He was unschooled in high school and spent his first year post-graduation self-educating. That works for some people. But others, like ..ehm...me…need a deadline if anything is ever going to get done. So set yourself a deadline, and make sure others know about it. Sell seats in a class before all the materials are done. Set a hard date that the next project will be available by. Tell someone you are going to write 30Stories in 30Days.
Jolie Guillebeau promised 100 Paintings in 100 Days. Julie Powell pledged to cook through Julia Child’s entire French cookbook in a year. Sure, it would be nice if you were more mature and could get it done without someone breathing down your neck. But if deadlines are your thing, you might as well roll with it. Why fight functionality?

Know Your
Cycle
At what point in your creative cycles is resistance most likely to strike? Make a note of it. You may not know how to keep resistance from striking. But if you know when it’s most likely to occur, then you can tell yourself “this too shall pass.” Think of it like your period. Sure you feel little nuts for a few days. But you level out eventually. If you aren’t aware of the stages of the creative cycle, or where yours gets all resistance-y,
this might help.
Set the Timer
Get a kitchen timer and just start working. Put paint on the canvas, write words on a page. It doesn’t have to be a part of your finished product. You just need to get started. I usually set mine for 20 minutes. In 10 minutes I might not be in the groove. But if I set it for 20 and just start working, by the time the bell sounds I’m usually on a roll and don’t want to quit.
Personalize Your Gremlins
Resistance is definitely a
gremlin. You might as well name it. (Mine is called Pinkerton.) When resistance raises its annoying little head, follow these tips. Pinkerton would also like to give you this. (He’s being a very good boy now.)
Become Pavlov’s Dog
I said this before about getting through administrative tasks, and it also applies to breaking through resistance around making your art. This technique works regardless of your art form. It involves picking a favorite “working song” or set of songs and playing it every time you sit down to work. Eventually you pattern your brain to twig into working as soon as you hear the familiar refrains. I still use a disc of trip hop that a friend made me eight years ago. When resistance is at its strongest, I break out those tunes and the muscle memory of typing takes over.
Show up at the Page
Any number of writers will tell you that the key to their success was to show up consistently to the page (or the easel, or the blow torch…you get the idea.) Most of them advocate for showing up at the same time every day. That’s nice if you are a full time artist. But for the rest of us, it’s more catch when catch can. If you can pick just one day/time of the week that is your time to make art, and hit it every week for 10 weeks, you will have gone a long way to establishing a working ritual for yourself. When you pick your time slot, keep functionality in mind. It would be lovely if you could write every morning at 5am, but will that work for you? I spent a lot of time feeling wimpy for the fact that I cannot write before noon. Finally I stopped resisting, planned my day around the fact that I would get the bulk of my work done between 12-3, and went with it. What’s your most functional time? Save some of it for your art if you can.

Read This Book
If you do nothing else for your art, read this: The War of Art by Steve Pressfield. Ignore the unrelentingly male warmonger-y title and just buy it. You art is worth fighting for.
P.s. After two hours of resistance to this post, I wrote the whole thing in three songs. You can do it. Be a resistance fighter.
More on Resistance from Magpie Girl:
Writing and Resistance
Mantras for Writers

Rachelle Mee-Chapman, specializes in customized soulcare for spiritual misfits. She works with clients at Magpie Girl to help them find a spirituality that fits; and hosts Flock, an online soulcare community. You can learn more about her creative approach in her free ecourse, Magpie Speak: a new vocabulary for soulcare.  
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13 October 2010

The Journey is Life Itself.

"A journey shows us not only the world, but how we fit in it."

I've been thinking a lot about my travels.  How much they changed me.  How much I define myself by the places I've been.  I often say "I'm homesick for the world."  This has been one of those weeks. I am homesick for all the places I've been, but mostly for the places I have not.  I can't help but wonder what part of myself awaits me there?  Who am I in that place.  I think the key to opening that part of me lies in the thing I only experience there.  What is the thing and where is there? 

25 September 2010

Full Moon Dream Board: Lean Into the Cycle, But Don't Fall In.

September Full Moon came and went. And apparently it was special because it was the Harvest moon and it coincided with the fall equinox.  I missed all that. I've not been sleeping.  I've not been sleeping well anyway.  Have you noticed that I've also not be writing?  I haven't.  Not here, not there.  Not in a box with a fox. Not anywhere.  I'm just tired. 

So, BAM!  New month.  New school quarter. New art. 

"Lean Into the Cycle, But Don't Fall In" is based on one of the lessons from the Magpie Speak course.  The lesson was about managing the craziness that is often paired with the creative cycle.  For each cycle there is a "handy mantra" to help us cope with some of the stress each part of the cycle will likely cause.  I listed them down the right side. 
  • "The right thing will come at the right time."
  • "Nothing is ever wasted."
  • "One step at a time."
  • "Breathe the next breath. Write the next line."
  • "This too shall pass." 
I find the cycle comforting and helpful in explaining some of the tiredness I feel at times.  As my gears shift this fall into a new schedule (and a crazy one at that), I want to remember to take a moment each day to check in with myself and remind myself of all the above.  But I want to make sure that the control the cycle has over me and the control I have over the cycle are balanced.  I don't to fall into the cycle so far that I get lost.  I'd like to keep my head above water. 

04 September 2010

Power Stories with Magpie Girl

Hi Mom! And any other random readers out there.  I know I've not been around here much.  I've kind of gone inwards lately.  It's been a good time for me to evaluate my writing and my education and I am finding that while it feels like a sacrifice now, I love the path I am on and where it is leading me.  

Part of that path involves my new(ish) job working as a Virtual Assistant to Rachelle Mee-Chapman of Magpie Girl and Flock. She's offering a new course in a couple of weeks called Power Stories and I'm excited to share this little interview we did with you.  I recommend signing up.  Enjoy! 







1.      What inspired you to develop and offer your readers this course?
My post *8Things I know about Standing in Your Own Power really resonated with Magpie Girl readers, and people emailed me asking for more information and advice.  I’m always excited by topics that emerge organically from the community. So I created more material around the topic, since it was such a felt need.  Many women struggle with standing in the truth of who they are.  Institutions, male influence, cultural images of “ideal” women – all these can push us around. Yet my young daughters, ages 10 and 12, intuitively stand in their own power. This tells me we aren’t meant to shrink and hide ourselves. I believe we can recover the ability to be powerful.

2.      How did you decide what other voices to bring into the class and what do you think the diversity of voices brings to the course? 
 Because learning to stand in my own power is a growing-edge for me, I wanted to recruit partners in the process. I thought of women who just hum with power, confidence, and kindness; and invited them to participate in the course. The lessons I received back from them were incredible! Having so many voices in our teaching pool helps us learn from a wide range of life experience – gay/straight/bi, married/divorced/single; child-free/mothers, 30/40/50 – there are so many perspectives amongst the contributors; it’s bound to meet the needs of far more people than my voice alone could impact.

3.      Do you have a favorite aspect of the Power Stories?
I’m really pleased that it has collection of learning tools – essays, podcasts, videos, and worksheets.  That variety makes it very textured and accessible. And I love how communal it is – both that the idea for the course emerged out of the Magpie Girl community, and that it is lead by a collection of amazing teachers. Plus I get a kick out of some of the downloadable treats my design partner is cooking up!

4.      How does Power Stories tie into the other work you do on Magpie Girl, and Flock
 At Magpie Girl I provide care for creative souls. At Flock we are building an online soultribe for spiritual misfits. Power Stories offers a skill-set that both communities need. Magpies need to stand in their own power to develop their artistic voice and to make room for creative pursuits. Flock members need a deep-rooted stance to support them as they re-define faith and spiritual practice in their own powerful terms.

5.      How will the course fit into busy lives?
You can read each lesson in Power Stories (or do each worksheet) as they arrive in your email box   every couple of days. Or you can save them up and give yourself a bunch soulcare goodness on a self-styled weekend retreat. It’s up to you. Plus, I’m sort of a lackadaisical minimalist. I like a nice turn of phrase, but I don’t want to read filler. So each piece of material is honed to be beautifully to the point.

12 August 2010

ART POST: You can wear a watch, but don't count on it.

I'm slightly obsesses with these wonderful watch and clock pieces I found at the Fremont Sunday Market.  Here you go.  (Some day I'll figure out how to take a decent picture, for now these will have to do.)





02 August 2010

ART POST: Trees

These paintings don't have a name.  I was trying to use up some paint chips I had gathered at the store for another project and this is what came of them.  I love trees.  Very much.  I also wanted to see what happened when I watered down acrylic paint to almost water color.   I kinda like these...a lot.